?

Log in

No account? Create an account

Previous Entry | Next Entry

fic: Dreaming True


Title: Dreaming True
Author: fengirl88
Fandom: BBC Sherlock; Maurice (1987) crossover
Pairing: Lestrade/Maurice
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: none
Wordcount: ~650
Disclaimer: They're still not mine.
Summary: “Dreamt I was young again,” Lestrade grumbles, half sitting up and trying to get the crick out of his neck.
A/N: written for kopoushka 's birthday, because it was her idea that they should meet in the first place, and as a fill for the love_bingo prompt square "somebody to love". Same 'verse as The Old Bad Songs.


Dreaming True


“Dreamt I was young again,” Lestrade grumbles, half sitting up and trying to get the crick out of his neck.

“Was that good or bad?” Maurice asks drowsily. His arm's still heavy across Lestrade's thigh.

“Good, I think. You were in it.”

“Oh well,” Maurice says, waking up a bit more. “Bound to be good then.”

“I climbed in through your bedroom window,” Lestrade says, remembering.

“Did you? Lucky me,” Maurice says. He pulls Lestrade back down and kisses his neck.

“Mm,” Lestrade says. “Couldn't do that now, not for real. Pity.”

“Couldn't do it here anyway,” Maurice says.

They're quiet for a bit, thinking about that. Maurice still has the same flat, on the 28th floor, and they both remember what that fall does to a body.

It was nearly yours, Lestrade thinks, though he doesn't say it. They'll probably never forget how close a call that was, but there's no need to go looking for it.

“Were you at the big house again?” Maurice asks.

Lestrade nods. Hasn't dreamed about the place for a while, and he's not sure why it's happened now.

“Seemed like a different time though,” he says. “You were frightened. Thought you were sick. Tried to find someone to cure you.”

Maurice strokes his hair. “Still happening to some, isn't it?” he says. “What about that ex-gay app they had on iTunes?”

Lestrade buries his face in Maurice's shoulder and tries not to think about it. They're the lucky ones, he knows that.

He's always been lucky. Just a crying shame you have to think of it that way. Surviving.

All you can do is make the most of the time you've got. It's a hell of a lot more than you thought you'd have twenty years ago when it seemed like all your friends were dying.

And what he has with Maurice is more than he'd thought possible after five years of being unhappily fixated on Sherlock. Somebody to love. Somebody who loves him right back.

Maurice seems ordinary, next to Sherlock. Has that in common with, oh, 95% of the population of the UK. Maybe more. But he has an extraordinary gift for loving. Not just bed, though his hidden talents in that department were a revelation. All this time later, the memory of that first night they'd spent together can still make Lestrade catch his breath, make his pulse quicken. But it's the way Maurice looked at him that night that stays sharpest in his mind. Looked at him like Lestrade was the most beautiful thing he'd ever seen. The look Lestrade still sees oftener than you'd expect.

Nobody but an idiot thinks romance lasts for ever, though there are plenty of idiots around. Lestrade spent too much of his forties lonely and frustrated, missing out on what he could have had because nobody else was like Sherlock and he didn't want anything less. Trapped in something so bad for him he couldn't even see it for what it was.

What's come to him late in his life is a gift. Not just finding somebody to love, but believing he can be that for someone else.

“What happened in the end of your dream?” Maurice asks.

“Can't remember,” Lestrade says. “I think I was asleep and you woke me up. Or maybe it was the other way round. It was raining, I think, and you kissed me.”

“Like this?” Maurice kisses him lightly, teasingly, then grins as Lestrade gives a little hngh of frustration.

“More like this,” Lestrade says, demonstrating.

“Mmm,” Maurice says, pressing against him. “Good dream, from the sound of it.”

“Waking up's better though,” Lestrade says, running his hands down Maurice's back.

“Yes it is,” Maurice says, a bit thickly. “Much better. So now we're both awake, how about you show me what happened when you climbed in through that window?”


 

Comments

( 32 comments — Leave a comment )
kalypso_v
Apr. 11th, 2011 11:13 pm (UTC)
Oh good! I'm so glad they've managed to have a ladder-and-window scenario in this existence too, even if it's through a dream. And that they're still so happy.
fengirl88
Apr. 11th, 2011 11:22 pm (UTC)
thank you! it didn't occur to me for a long time that this was a possibility, but I was glad when I thought of the dream. and it seemed right that they should still be so happy.
2ndskin
Apr. 12th, 2011 12:20 am (UTC)
yeah, well, I am a total sucker for this happily-ever-after, but with a tender, bruised bit of heart that makes sure they never take it for granted. just lovely! oh, Lestrade--such dreams . . . the window is such the perfect metaphor for them.

please forgive me--I have to make a random observation. I have been listening to old versions of Desert Island Discs that I've never heard, and listened tonight to Randy Newman, who listed mostly classical pieces, but said his favorite record ever was Ray Charles, Come Rain or Come Shine. I read your poignant story just after downloading and playing the song, and am listening to it again now. The Atlantic Jazz version. That, my friend, is a hell of a good combination. High as a mountain, deep as a river. Ray Charles is now the score for Maurice/Lestrade in my head. Love to your and your beautiful brain--come rain or come shine.
fengirl88
Apr. 12th, 2011 12:33 am (UTC)
thank you very much - that's a lovely comment! *glows happily*

there should be more Maurice/Lestrade before too long, I hope (I owe ginbitch a liquid ficlet with the two of them, and I still need to get back to the opera series).

I must go and listen to the Ray Charles - and see if I can find that episode of Desert Island Discs!
syien_island
Apr. 12th, 2011 12:51 am (UTC)
GAH! I NEEDED THIS SOOOO BAD!!!

I love that Lestrade is dreaming of their past lives (hee), especially of climbing up to Maurice's window. I feel that in the present, it was Lestrade who was in a bit of muddle. A different type of muddle, but a muddle no less.

“What happened in the end of your dream?” Maurice asks.

“Can't remember,” Lestrade says. “I think I was asleep and you woke me up.

Boathouse!!! You are awesome.
fengirl88
Apr. 12th, 2011 12:56 am (UTC)
Scudder icon! *flails*

rusty_armour made the "same boathouse" one to go with Change In The Weather, but it seemed right for this as well.

so glad you liked this - thank you very much!
syien_island
Apr. 12th, 2011 01:04 am (UTC)
Yeah, I read that and now I can't watch that scene without thinking about it. Thanks a lot!

The icon is appropriate, no? It took me forever to screencap that scene juhhhhhhst right with my crappy player.
fengirl88
Apr. 12th, 2011 09:08 am (UTC)
the icon was worth the forever it took you to screencap it! *loves*

thank you again!
(Deleted comment)
fengirl88
Apr. 12th, 2011 09:09 am (UTC)
thank you - I'm very pleased you liked it! and thank you for prompting me to think about this again. hadn't written Maurice/Lestrade for months, and I do love them together.
lotherington
Apr. 12th, 2011 07:47 am (UTC)
Oh, this was gorgeous! I love that you had Lestrade dreaming about 'the big house' and the ladder at the window. Really nicely done.

James Wilby and Rupert Graves were in a 2007 film together called Clapham Junction where they both played gay men. I'm trying to find a picture for you as they're both much older in this than they were in Maurice, but my google-fu is seriously letting me down.
fengirl88
Apr. 12th, 2011 09:12 am (UTC)
thank you very much - I'm glad you enjoyed it.

I did see Clapham Junction when it was on TV in 2007, but haven't gone back to it since, which I really should.

julie_izumi made this icon and some others in answer to my request for an older Lestrade and Maurice. I like them a lot.
kalypso_v
Apr. 12th, 2011 12:22 pm (UTC)
I think the closest they got to a love scene was the bit where they didn't have sex in a toilet.
fengirl88
Apr. 12th, 2011 06:40 pm (UTC)
ah, the romance of cottaging... Kit and the Widow have a song about it but I couldn't find it on YouTube.
morganstuart
Apr. 12th, 2011 11:54 am (UTC)
This is so very lovely. Just a little bittersweet, and all the more touching for it.
fengirl88
Apr. 12th, 2011 01:36 pm (UTC)
thank you very much - I'm glad you liked that about it! I was pleased to find a way of getting L through that window, even if only in a dream.
ginbitch
Apr. 12th, 2011 12:04 pm (UTC)
*happy sigh*

These two get me every time! Gorgeous as ever!

<3
fengirl88
Apr. 12th, 2011 01:38 pm (UTC)
thank you very much! *beams*

I haven't forgotten that I owe you a liquid ficlet with the two of them. still trying to work out what the relevant liquid is for that...

looking forward very much to tomorrow!
weefreethings
Apr. 13th, 2011 02:42 am (UTC)
Very cute! Happy fluff is sometimes just what is needed!
fengirl88
Apr. 13th, 2011 06:35 am (UTC)
thank you - it was good to get Lestrade through that window! *grins*
megan_moonlight
Apr. 13th, 2011 05:10 am (UTC)
This fic made me smile soooo much! <3333
It was sweet, and wonderful and you deserve lots of hugs for making my morning better! 8D
*squishes*
fengirl88
Apr. 13th, 2011 06:36 am (UTC)
oh good! I'm very glad it made your morning better - thank you for telling me.
megan_moonlight
Apr. 13th, 2011 06:21 pm (UTC)
Hee, thank YOU for writing! <3333
darthhellokitty
Apr. 15th, 2011 12:20 am (UTC)
Awwwwwww, this is so utterly sweet and lovely. That DOES sound like a good dream. :-)
fengirl88
Apr. 15th, 2011 09:58 am (UTC)
thank you very much! I think it was - and I was pleased to find a way to get Lestrade through the right bedroom window at last. *grins*
kate_lear
Apr. 17th, 2011 10:32 am (UTC)
I've just had the most blissful morning, sitting on the sofa in the sunshine & reading my way through your Lestrade/Maurice series, from 'The Old Bad Songs' through 'Beginning to See the Light' & the opera trilogy, then 'Change in the Weather' (which was gorgeously sexy, & I have to say that Lestrade is a better person than I am - going to spend a weekend at the country house of your partner's ex!).

I really loved this series. I've recently watched 'Maurice', with the young Rupert Graves looking gorgeous & this was just fantastic. I loved the slow progression of their relationship, & how Lestrade was so charmingly confused by M handing out his mobile number when they'd only just met. I loved how it tied in with 'In Transition' (another series of yours I've just read, & am off to comment there right after I post this!), & how Lestrade shifted slowly but surely from being completely hung up on Sherlock to being well & truly over him. It was glorious :)
fengirl88
Apr. 17th, 2011 10:52 am (UTC)
squeee!!! can't tell you how delighted I am to get this from you. *bounces up and down excitedly*

I've always loved Maurice, which I saw soon after it came out (one of the benefits of being Generation Lestrade), and when I saw this icon by eumelkeks I had a very happy Gestalt moment. that's where Close Analysis came from - but I had no idea that the "Lestrade is secretly Scudder from Maurice" joke would lead to all this. I'm very grateful to kopoushka for suggesting Lestrade and an older Maurice should meet.

I'm so pleased you liked the stories!


kate_lear
Apr. 17th, 2011 03:37 pm (UTC)
Oh, I really did love the film. I remember hearing about/reading the outline of 'Maurice' (although not as far as the ending) & thinking 'Well, this is going to be happy. A film about homoseuxality when it was still very much illegal, I'm imagining break-ups & angst & maybe public disgrace & angst & sadness & more angst'. & yes, there was angst, but the bit at the end when Maurice went to see Durham & told him that he could sod off with his hypocrisy, & that Maurice had found someone he really loved & who loved him back... That was WAY more of a feel-good ending than I was prepared for! It was lovely, & I may possible have cheered at my laptop at the look on Durham's face & when Maurice & Alec found each other in the boathouse. Awwwww.

& now I get to read about what happens to Maurice in later life. It's great :)
rusty_armour
Apr. 18th, 2011 02:16 am (UTC)
I love the way you're able to incorporate Maurice references into this story through Lestrade's dream. The image of Lestrade climbing into Maurice's window is both beautiful and symbolic. I think it's clever that a therapy session with someone like Lasker-Jones has been replaced by the iTunes ex-gay app. Best of all is the allusion to that final scene between Maurice and Scudder in the boathouse. The dialogue between Lestrade and Maurice is wonderful, not to mention the kissing.

fengirl88
Apr. 18th, 2011 11:10 am (UTC)
thank you so much - I'm very glad you like this, and all those things in particular. I assumed I couldn't have Lestrade climbing through Maurice's window because they don't meet in this 'verse until L's window-climbing days are over - so I was very happy when I got the idea of the dream.

*pats your lovely boathouse icon again*
maggie_conagher
Jun. 18th, 2011 01:27 pm (UTC)
You have taken me so many places in the past week. The great gushing purge of reading and commenting on the Invasion series over at AO3, and now happier things tempered with baggage of the past.

I was up very early as I see fr. other ppl's comments that this was a morning read for several. Had skipped lunch and supper yesterday and delayed breakfast this morning to finish.

Driving to Burger King, stopped at stoplight and just breathless, glowing, and tingling from the ending. Light was green for quite some time before i moved on, and i know driver behind thought that i was hungover or doing the drive of shame after sexed up Friday night. Semi true but all reading, lol.

Transported and transformed. Thank you, fengirl for the free vacay.
fengirl88
Jun. 18th, 2011 09:44 pm (UTC)
thank you - I'm very glad you're enjoying these stories so much. it took a long time to work out how to get Lestrade through that bedroom window, but I was very happy when I did!
( 32 comments — Leave a comment )

Profile

scallop voices
fengirl88
fengirl88



Tags




Powered by LiveJournal.com